The End..but only the beginning of your story...

     There was nothing else to do now than to enter the dark opening.  She approached slowly and felt along the walls of the enclosure.  As soon as her body was within the darkness, all light disappeared.  She was left now with herself in a dark hole in the darkest inner belly of the ocean depths.  Would she survive?  The hallow was not tall enough for her to stand so she crawled and felt the ground and walls.  It was quite cool and moist with water filling every crevice but she was able to feel several objects on the ground within the smooth, curved walls of the hollow.  First, a small figurine made of what she would describe as clay.  The head was petite yet the body round and bulbous with a great belly surrounding the mid waist.  Her form narrowed again at the feet with breasts perfectly rounded.  The back had a rear similarly rounded and the best that she could figure was that this was a fertility statue devoted to earth goddess worship that she had studied about as a young woman.  It felt as if it had been held by other hands for extended durations having perfectly shaped finger protrusions along its curves.  Another item she felt was a mat that when she ran her fingers along it felt quite soft and alive.  As soft mosses felt in her prior life which now faded from memory, more and more every moment.  The fibers of the mat waved in soft tickling movements and as she lay upon it, each strand worked with the whole to lift her body in the most delicate way she had ever felt.  She fell into deep slumber as her form regenerated.
    When she awoke not knowing how long she had slept, her mind and body felt different.  As a matter of fact she felt quite different all over.  She couldn't tell exactly what had changed but she was energized and her mind was sharp and clean.  Free from the usual clutter of practical and analytical thoughts that ran through it.  She realized she was still clutching the goddess form between her fingertips that tingled with sensation.  It was as if every one of the cells in her form was cleansed to its deepest fibers and changed forever.  She had a peace about and within her that was more serene then she had ever known.  Gladness filled her breast knowing how comfortable she was there.  She curled into a small ball feeling sheltered and safe in the darkness.  The hollow dwelling felt more comfortable then the largest of palaces with all of her prior concern having been washed far away from her.  The pressure of the moving waters, surrounding her, rocking her gently in their folds.
    She allowed the place to fill her and seep into every pore of her being.  Her form massaged from every angle by the rocking.  Here she no longer felt separated.  An individual apart from the rest, but instead melted into oneness of all life.  She breathed deeply and her individual identity surrendered to the wholeness of all, feeling deeply nourished tucked in the roots of the great mother of all life.  She was Her now and one with Her will.  One with Her desire.  One with Her compassion.  As she opened her eyes all life now beamed of an inner light.  The darkness that she feared before was no longer possible as now she saw the golden light beaming from every fiber of the mat below her.  From the stone walls covered by tiny lichen.  The waters illuminated by their tiny forms drifting through them.  She sat up and beheld the great radiance of life all around her, shifting and moving.  They, as if smiling at her, as her deep inhales filled her with the bounty of their energy.  There was no more desire in her.  Her contentment all complete.
     She could sense The Dragon returning to her and she sat peacefully relaxed.  As His luminescent form descended before her, she, now one with all that is, could see him for what he was.  The beginning of all.  The source of all life who's word stirred the cosmos into existence.  Him who's desire for all life brought all into being.  Him, whos very fibers were the building blocks of all life.  There was no more thoughts separate from her being just a deep knowing of all things.  As he neared He knew she was ready and as they embraced all life again returned to its completeness.
 
 

Home Hallow

    The road illuminated by countless beaming creatures filled with the brightness of stars.  He led her up the swirling path into a cave-like hollow, high above the city.  It was much darker here and and she wondered what she could possibly have to do there.  'Welcome home my girl'  his softness murmured inside her.  'What is this place Master?' 'It is the Home you shall dwell in'.  She thought that he must be joking because the opening was immersed in complete darkness.  None of the luminescent beings were here to light the way.  'You do not like it?' he looked intensely into her asking the question a second time that day.  She had a feeling there would not be a third time and she answered quickly, more on edge now, gulping down her frustration, 'Yes, I want it'.  'Good' he raised an eyebrow.  'I have business in town and will be gone for some time', he left her no pause to protest . 'When I return, you will be ready.  Make due, best you can, with what you have here'.  He turned around and was gone before she could say a word.
     Her rage welled up in her breast.  To bring her all the way down here to the city of the stars and leave her in a dark hole?  She swore she would never forgive him and certainly not make it easy for him to ever see her again.  If it had been any other place he would have never seen her again.  She was a determined and stubborn girl, after all.  She had to be, to have survived this long.  Yet here she knew nothing.  Simple things like feeding herself were now unimaginable wonders, hard to conceive.  "Uuuugggghhhhhrrrrr", a roar welled up and escaped her lips causing the water to ripple around her. 

City of Light

  As the waters grew into complete darkness, there in the distance, she saw a light.  A beacon calling her.  She, unable to resist its flickering call, her fingertips now webbed for swift movement through the water, pushed her form to go faster towards it.  There was no time under the black waters, only her desire growing, to arrive.  As she got closer, a great city of light opened before her.  There was a great arched gate and beyond it, countless tall reefs with fluid lights floating between them.  Inside she could see movement and shadows of creatures, with the light beaming from within.  As she approached, sea-creature guards with forms bright from within like walking stars, parted the gate, without a sound.   
    She found it strange that thy would know her and as she penetrated the city, there at the center was a great circular well with him standing before it.  Her dragon Master had now changed in form, from scales a large beast with scales as black and iridescent as night, to a form of celestial light.  He looked as a man now yet his form shone so brightly that she had to allow her eyes to adjust to look at him.  She approached him walking with her feet on the ground.  It seemed the city was set on a place with such balanced energy that she could now place her feet lightly and move along the surface as if floating, yet it was only her desire that moved her.
     He embraced her as she stepped before him. 'I am glad you have come' His tone reassuring her in words she could feel inside of her.  Spoken language no longer needed to communicate in the depths.  'My Master' she was relieved to be in his arms, feeling his rhythmic heart beat, hers calming to his.  Then a feeling rippled through her from within.  She pulled back looking at him 'Why did you call me from Her?'  He looked surprised that she would not understand all of it by now.  'You are her seed.  You belong with me.'  His tones simply stated without question in the pulses of her heart beat.  She could feel the rage welling up heat inside her realizing this was decided.  Her eyes filled with with fluid from her veins and she watched a drop of black blood spread in the waters in front of her.  He watched her tenderly with concern on his brow of light, 'You do not wish this?' he asked openly.  She turned her head to look up, the endless darkness with fluid stars moving far above them. 
     She returned her gaze to him 'I do want it'.  His brow unfurling at the change within her.  The corner of his mouth curling into a smirk of satisfaction.  'Are you quite satisfied with yourself?' she asked seeing his reaction.  'Almost' he beamed with mystery.  He was not one to ever surrender a straight answer.  'Well, what exactly would you have me do here?' she adored delicately pushing him.  He chuckled which caused her insides to whirl in tingles.  Turning he started moving and she followed not knowing what he could possibly have in mind for her. 
           
         

Underworld

    She stayed there laying in the great roots, covered with a blanket of moist earth, resting.  She made a vow never to move nor ever go anywhere again.  Her mother accepted her choice fully without a word as she accepted all of her children's wills.  The acorns dotting the rich soil all hers, the grass seeds waving in the wind all hers, the pollen floating in the atmosphere all hers.  She was the one great source of all life above and below, her great branches whispering lullabies as the girl rested.  In her deep inner journey she saw the beginning of all of the galaxies, the birth of all creation out of the sheer desire to be.  Her heart beat now one with the great mother of all, she had no more desire of her own.  The fairies braided her hair and painted her face.  She now lay, an offering.
    Yet that very moment when she was to be no more and merge with her source a rumble of the earth stirred her soul.  She felt it through her fingertips and the blood in her veins that had slowed now moved with the push a beat of her heart.  It was an ancient call that her soul remembered from long ago that she had promised to remember and never forget.  Softly her body rose from the earth and with none of her will, she walked to the shore.  Her finger tips had rested for the moment on the great mother's roots, before they separated from her touch.   The separation she felt washed through her without mercy as her body moved towards the beach.  Her form was now clad in a spider silk gown that shimmered in the face of the great moon above, whose form was full now and the land below was lit with moon beams that made it glow from within.  The breeze circled her skin softly getting her ready.  When she stepped on the great protruding rocks, overlooking the water, the pull of her body caused her to dive, head first, into the waters.  Her form moved easily through the water as if each muscle knew exactly what to do.  Diving deeper and deeper she would not stop, this time her form perfectly suited for the depths.  There was nothing but silence within her.  At a point the feeling that water was penetrating her skin, caused her lungs to expand, sensing the oxygen separate from the water for her use.  It felt more natural then anything prior so there was no cause for her to do anything but feel the serenity inside and around her as she descended.
    The cycle of life below as above, the infinity symbol resting vertically on the ocean line appeared in her mind.  A great mother whale with a calf looked at her smiling with her eyes as the calf swam up to touch her with his fin.  A spotted shark ten lengths of her body moved through the depths below, keeping his watchful gaze upon her.  Schools of fish of every color and shape like great prairies of wild flowers that moved in the wind, approached her, separated around her form, united again, and vanished just as quickly.  Turtles of three times her arm length swam past her uninterested, focused on their destination.
 

Mother

    As the sun lifted and hues of orange yellow and red spread through the horizon, she opened her eyes slowly nestled perfectly in his form with an alive tension in her muscles as she held onto him.  'Not long now' the softness of his rumble gave her chills as waves of pleasure ran through her body.  She had never felt this complete before and there was no force in creation that could separate them now.  Closing her eyes again, a serene peace overfilled her.  In that place, her being rocked by him in rhythmic intervals, there was nothing she needed or wanted.  He dipped his body gentelly to let the water run over her form wetting her skin and the silk kimono again to her.  With the fabric slick, clinging to her skin, it felt like water armor, strong and soft.  It was the closest feeling to what having scales would feel like, that she could imagine. 
     She felt him emanate a soft gruff that caused her body to sit up and look forward.  Before them was land in a crescent shape with great trees covering its form that ascended to a peak in the far center where she could make out the form of one great tree, overlooking the land, ocean, and all upon it.  She was memorized by the site as she had seen this tree in her dreams.  Visions of all life having one source.  The pulse of mother earth beating in one place so strongly that any creature could feel it.  Resting in the roots of her great form was her only desire and as he approached she could do nothing else but run towards the great tree. 
   Though the beach and around the bushes.  Up the moist soils through the palms and needle point pines.  Her breath quicker, pumping the oxygen rich air through her lungs energizing every cell of her form.  She did not stop for a moment, with no question or thought running through her mind.  She was now a nature spirit weaving lightly in between the trees, her feet barely touching the soil.  Here her heart knew itself a part and parcel of a whole.  A feeling she had not experienced from before her birth.  Here she was one with Her.  "Mother!" tears ran down her cheeks as the trees thickened.  "Mother!" as the trees parted , she stood before Her.  She fell to her knees placing her head on the moist, rich earth and inhaled.  Weeping madly, taking the earth covering her form in it, as she rolled her body heaving deep sobs.  'You are home my child '.  The words came slowly with each syllable softening all the tension in her body.  Laying there looking up at Her branches, her hands resting on Her sensitive, powerful roots.  She knew she one now and never again would she feel separated.  

Never say Never

      Regaining her awareness of his absence a roar poured from her across the calm water "No!"  She did not wish to continue amongst the dead shadows of beings she had been caged with n the walls of the great city.  Dead from their primal instincts, clothed in guilt and shame.  She stripped the silk kimono from her taking a breath diving deep into the dark waters.  She could only swim down so far before her body fought for a breath of the air that kept her alive.  Relentlessly, she fought with her earthly form, yet it would not succumb to her will.  Finally, in sputtering wales she lay on the scale upon the waters.  There was nothing more for her in that plane and the one her soul yearned for was not made for the flesh that encased her.  As dusk descended the great sun that had showed no mercy for her burning skin vanished into the cooling waters.  Her wales had turned now to still surrender accepting her fate of perishing there between the two worlds she could not be a part of.  Neither by choice.
      She would not go back to living as a shadow of herself, yet she could not yet descend to the depths of her soul.  As the great darkness blanketed the heavens, millions of stars looked down their shimmering faces upon her.  Her form surrendered to whatever fate lay ahead.  Her salty tears returned to the salt waters below her.  There was no moon to light her vision yet this is how she preferred it.  In the night she felt safe and at home.  The minds of humanity silenced.
     Suddenly, her ears picked up a low rumble as if the earth deep below the waters was erupting.  As she sat up, grasping the scale, a great dragon head erupted from the waters with the rumble turning into a screech human ears could not withstand.  She cupped her ears tightly squeezing her head in between them, as the sound got so loud it turned all around it into momentary silence.  She opened her eyes as the sound of the ocean waters returned, seeing her dragon before her.  His face close to hers.  On his great tooth hung her kimono which he spat with a great waterfall of water upon her.  She laughed to the heavens and looked up at him, relieved that she could behold his form again.  He brought his nose to her and sniffed out a great puff as she tied the kimono around her.  Now was the time to rejoice, as he had not know he had almost killed her.  'I'm sorry ' she heard from within, surprised at his tenderness with her.'
      'I'm sorry my beautiful Master that I will never in this life be able to descend to be home with you again', she looked at him her eyes filled with the longing of her soul.  'Never say never little one' she could feel his chuckle tickle her form, 'Come on me now and I shall take you to a place we can both endure'.  She jumped to him without hesitation grabbing the out growths at the base of the scales by which she could pull herself up without getting cut by the sharp tips of the great scale plates that covered him.  She had learned by trial and error and many mistakes, yet now she knew how to ascend him.  His skin as sensitive as it was strong was delicate and warm underneath the plated covering that lifted and moved as he turned.  Being with him was her favorite place in existance.  She beamed and held close to him as he carried his head above the water height, carrying her, as he swiftly moved through the waves of the surface, towards his destination.

Not Yet

Yet, as the scale lifted, a force pulled her body fiercely upward. Realizing a cord of her cloak had caught upon the great scale, her body flew at a speed she had not known before. The water rushed around her as the sudden force burst through the surface.  Clutching onto the scale she coughed wildly, gulping the air.  She could feel the hot sun on her skin.  'It is not time yet' a voice from within her echoed.  

The Shedding

As the depths submerged them, for a moment she wanted to let go of his beastly form as the panic of the inevitable ran through her. She didn't mean for any of this to happen and certainly had not planned to meet him again.  Yet, as her awareness went to the contact of her body perfectly melted into the few hidden places on his that would not shred skin to pieces, she knew she would never let go.  Her soul was tied to his through all of eternity.  Her exhale was his inhale and his great exhale gave her the fire that burned deep in her soul.  She was at peace once and for all as she welcomed her previous life shedding.  She gripped tighter as the pressure of the depths built around them and a great scale separated, floating towards the fading light of the surface.  Something had also shed from him. 

Dragon Master

I heard an ancient call within my soul.  'What are you?' I asked it.  'I am your dragon Master. To whose heart you have surrendered for eternity long ago.   Get on me girl.  We are going home' I knew where it was: the depths where the darkness mirrors the universal darkness above...starlight captured in tiny creatures moving fluidly through its depths.  The fairies showed me this place. Their high pitched voices calling 'follow me' giggling. It was as if last night, but I knew much time had passed since their visit, yet now nothing else mattered but the moment.  His scales firm as stone and sharp as knives, her body perfectly formed to his.  She knew how to melt into him as he swirled his form through the waters, a beastly shape that ate humans.  No one would see her again, yet she knew she had left her story behind and in its essence life.  'Remember the time of the dragons my child and never forget it for your soul can not survive on land.  The human cities of metal and stone can never keep you.  I am your Master.  Remember.' She could hear his voice in her essence as they descended.  

A Name

Here in this place I have been stripped of all I thought I had.  Land, home, money, self -respect, confidence.  I was stripped to the bone until I could bleed no longer. Yet in that empty place something else entirely developed.  In that blank nakedness of a babe slowly life formed in my womb. It developed and grew until it emerged.  Tired from its birthing journey, it was finally home.  She my creativity.  "What do I call you?" I asked with a dumbfounded look.   "Seraphina Bahira" she replied, "as I am the fire that burns to keep who you are alive.  I am the blood that pulses through your veins. The life soul that accepts breath.  Here together we dwell.  I your creative fire and you, the creator."

Feminine Divine

My love, you have a gorgeous goddess body directly from the earth mother's breast.
Do not treat her as a cage.  She is a sacred gift. 
Worship her with scented oils and incense.
Nurture her with water and clean food. 

You have been given a sacred treasure. 
A compass that will always show you the way. 
Embrace your strength and summon the power within you.
Hers is the strength that will pour through your fingertips. 
Hers is the power of healing that will flow through your veins. 
Embrace now your feminine self.